Whitney Houston‘s longtime best friend, Robyn Crawford, confirms what has long been rumored, that she and the late singer had a physical relationship.
In her upcoming memoir, “A Song for You: My Life with Whitney Houston,” Crawford writes that their first kiss was “long and warm like honey.”
“As we eased out of it, our eyes locked, my nerves shot up, and my heart beat furiously,” the book reads, according to an excerpt released by People on Wednesday. “Something was happening between us. We never talked labels, like lesbian or gay. We just lived our lives, and I hoped it could go on that way forever.”
The two first met at a summer camp (isn’t that always the case?) in New Jersey, the summer of 1980, when they were both counselors.
In the book, Crawford describes a physical relationship and the first time she says they touched each other.
“Caressing her and loving her felt like a dream,” she writes.
Whitney ended the physical part of their relationship early on, soon after she signed a record deal with Clive Davis at Arista.
The singer broke the news by giving Crawford a gift of a slate blue Bible one day in 1982.
“She said we shouldn’t be physical anymore,” writes Crawford, “because it would make our journey even more difficult.”
“She said if people find out about us, they would use this against us,” says Crawford, “and back in the ’80s that’s how it felt.”
And so, she says, “I kept it safe. I found comfort in my silence.”
After things ended romantically, Crawford and Houston stayed close, even becoming roommates.
Houston went on to date Jermaine Jackson, Eddie Murphy and eventually marry Bobby Brown in 1992. Crawford ended up on Houston’s payroll, but over the years Crawford says she became more and more concerned about Houston’s issues with drugs.
Crawford writes that Houston told her she tried cocaine for the first time at age 14, and would often tell her, “Cocaine can’t go where we’re going,” but always said she “wasn’t ready” when Crawford pushed her to quit or seek help.
In 2000, Crawford quit her job working with Houston.
“I realized that I needed to save myself,” she wrote.
Houston and Crawford drifted apart after that, and Crawford writes that she was out to dinner when she learned that Houston had tragically died in 2012.
“I felt my insides shattering,” she wrote.
A Song for You comes out on Tuesday, Nov. 12.
(Whitney photo: Avalon)