Holliday, who has been married to her husband Nick since 2015, says she first said it aloud when she was talking to a man at a bar who asked if she was bisexual.
“I said, ‘Thank you so much for asking. I’ve been thinking a lot about my relationship to my own queerness, and I think the word pansexual speaks to me more than bi does.’ ”
Holliday said that the man then had to clarify: “‘Thank you for telling me about that, but actually, I said, Are you buying?’ ”
Reflecting on that encounter, Holliday told NYLON that coming out brings her “relief.”
“I feel like a lot of stuff in my life now makes sense,” she said. “A lot of the things that I felt when I was younger make sense. A lot of the relationships that I had make sense. I definitely have a sense of relief. I can connect with people on a more intimate level than I was before, because I don’t have to pretend to be someone I’m not.”
Holliday went on to say that while she is still in a fully monogamous relationship with Nick, she is still open to the idea of being with a woman.
“I might not know, like, what to do. But I feel like I’d figure it out,” she said.
(via People; photo: Avalon)