Caitlyn Jenner is on the July 2016 cover of Sports Illustrated in a gold sequin pantsuit and her 1976 Olympic gold medal.
In the interview, the 66 year-old Jenner discusses the upcoming Rio Olympics and opens up about how she felt competing in the ’76 games while silently struggling with being transgender and closeted. Jenner said of her body at the time,
“It disgusted me. I was big and thick and masculine. The rest of the world thought it was this Greek god kind of body. I hated it. But it’s what I was given, so I just tried to do the best I could with it.
Sports. It’s not real life. You go out there, you work hard, you train your ass off, win the Games. I’m very proud of that part of my life. And it’s not like I just want to throw it out. It’s part of who I am. What I’m dealing with now, this is about who you are as a human being. What did I do for the world in 1976, besides maybe getting a few people to exercise a little bit? I didn’t make a difference in the world.
I loved Bruce… I still love him today. I like what he did and the way he set an example for hard work and dedication. I’m proud of that part of my life. But this woman was living inside me, all my life, and it reached the point where I had to let her live and put Bruce inside. And I am happier, these last 12 months, than I’ve ever been in my life.”
In a 22-minute mini-doc to accompany the interview called Jenner: 40 Years After Gold, Jenner wonders what path her life would have taken if she hadn’t been an Olympic victor.
“I have thought about, you know, what if I didn’t win the games? What would my life be like? Would I have been able to, maybe at a younger age, deal with transitioning, being authentic to myself? All of those types of things. I’ve thought about those types of things.”
The story ends with this line;
A single word —transition— never seemed more appropriate.
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(via Sports Illustrated)