
In the wake of Marilyn Manson’s ongoing abuse scandal, Page Six has dug up his 1999 autobiography The Long Hard Road Out of Hell, and reprinted many of its pertinent passages.
In it, he says he came close to carrying out the “perfect murder” of a former bandmate and lover named Nancy — but got spooked moments before trying to burn her to death in her home in the early 1990s.
“This was the first time I had ever seriously considered murder. … She had to die,” wrote the 52-year-old rocker, whose real name is Brian Warner.
“While I didn’t think it was right to take a human life, I didn’t think it was right to deny myself the chance of causing someone to die either, especially someone whose existence meant so little to the world and to herself,” he wrote.
“At the time, taking someone’s life seemed like a necessary growing and learning experience, like losing your virginity or having a child.”
After roping in a friend to help, Manson wrote about how they “followed her, cased out her house and figured out her routine” before heading to Nancy’s Fort Lauderdale home with “kerosene, matches and rags.”
But as they neared, a homeless man started following them while trying to sell drugs — and they were finally scared off by a series of sirens heading to an emergency nearby, Manson wrote.
“After that night, I became too paranoid to kill Nancy, too scared of getting caught and sent to prison,” he wrote. “I woke up to the fact that I had told too many people of my hatred for her, and even the best plan … wasn’t good enough to protect us from chance events like passing police cars.”
Then there was a rape threat, in which he and another friend harassed a “hot brunette” whom they both had a crush on, but “wouldn’t even acknowledge our humanity.”
“I fell back on my usual deviant way of getting a girl’s attention: malicious, asinine behavior,” he wrote, saying that they would make threatening calls “every day for nearly a month.”
“At first, the calls were harmless. But they quickly grew meaner,” he wrote.
“‘We’re watching you,’ we’d threaten her at the height of our spite-masked lust. ‘You better not leave work tonight, because we’re going to rape you in the parking lot and then crush you underneath your own car,’” he wrote.
Back to to this week: In the wake of Evan Rachel Wood’s accusations, Manson has issued a denial saying:
the accusations were “horrible distortions of reality.”
“My intimate relationships have always been consensual with like-minded partners. Regardless of how — and why — others are now choosing to misrepresent the past, that is the truth,” he wrote on Instagram.